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Post by spotted on Jun 3, 2023 16:38:52 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/0j53YZS/conniecatava2~png | Constantine, Vilified for deeds done in the light. Hiding away within plain sight. This cloak is keeping safe, the secret face terrified of making one mistake. Narrow mind 'til the soul begins to break. Just a husk seeking the world's false graces. |
The cats of the barn had been his first experience with the settled cats within this valley. He had been hesitant about approaching them, and ultimately his arrival was piggybacked on peer-pressure as he was coaxed into going to the barn to meet some of the regulars by a tom named Lux. He mentioned he lived with the two-leg folk and visited the barn cats from time to time. He was insistent that they were friendly. 'Well, most of them.' Now that was the realistic answer he craved. Constantine was far more comfortable with cold facts than honeyed words. He made sure to keep Lux on the side with his good eye. Not quite trusting him, but not wholeheartedly distrusting him. What if this was a trap? His doubt told him. What reason would he have to lie? His rationality chimed in. Before long, Lux had played his piper song and had Constantine mindlessly following, his brain so preoccupied with 'what ifs' that he wasn't paying attention to his surroundings. Something his mother would have scolded him for, surely. Constantine paused at the entrance to the barn, his functional orb taking in the change of light, mapping every cat he saw, their positions, and trying to find another exit, just in case. Lux was quick to abandon him, trotting up to another band of cats who joyously welcomed him like a long lost friend. Slowly creeping inside, his paw steps were light, as if the ground underneath was covered in rose thorns. A few steps inside was as much as he could muster apparently, and he sat on his haunches, keeping his left side to the wall so nobody might sneak up on him. And from there in his slice of free wall, he observed the other cats' interactions with one another. Some seemed quite friendly, grooming each other without any tenseness in their bodies or any seeming medical reason to do so that he could ascertain from his current post. He did not wish to approach them, many clusters had more cats than he was comfortable with being in his personal bubble. Even when he was living with the nomadic healers, he was never comfortable enough to just insert himself into an ongoing conversation, and he had come to know those cats well - he liked to think. He wasn't the only cat on his own however, and that gave him a modicum of comfort. He did not wish to stick out, for them to turn and notice him and start whispering among themselves. He wanted to figure out the social hierarchy here before he engaged. Lux had told him there was no leader here per se, but every group had a social dynamic, no matter how small.
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Post by absurdjinx on Jun 16, 2023 9:20:24 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/42wfXx2/sage~jpg | sage, "you gotta hurt sometimes to learn to heal
you gotta get back up and learn to deal"
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Sage was as content as could be. She’d just woken from a nap and found herself pressed against Dustfern. Unintentionally, a warm smile curled the corners of her lips upward as she gazed down at her friend, who was still asleep. She tried not to wake Dustfern as she extended her forearms outward and stretched her jaws wide in a silent yawn, but her friend blinked open her eyes anyway. Dustfern greeted her with a tired smile and Sage’s heart swelled with fondness at the sight. After placing an affectionate lick between the other molly’s ears, Sage rose to her paws and allowed herself to wake each limb properly, Dustfern mimicking her actions, before she rocked back on her haunches. She was looking forward to a lazy morning with the one cat she cared for most in the world, but it seemed Dustfern had other plans. While Sage was still half-asleep, Dustfern was prepared to tackle the day. She informed Sage she was going to go hunting and when she volunteered to tag along, Dustfern teased her by saying she’d just scare all the prey away in her sleepy state. Dustfern padded off then, but not without sending Sage a reassuring smile first. As her friend slipped out of the barn, two cats entered. Sage recognized Lux, who visited the barn frequently, but the other cat was unfamiliar to her. She watched as Lux left the stranger to join a group of gossiping felines nearby, but she never once removed her gaze from the newcomer. Cautiously, he crept deeper into the barn, though he only made it a few paw steps before he decided that was enough. Sage, if she were a different cat, would have smiled in amusement at his wariness, but alas, she was not. Instead, she frowned, reminded of her own first time walking into the barn and she’d looked a lot like the stranger did now. She’d also studied every cat closely during her first day - the first several days, actually. She’d been ready to run at the first sign of trouble. As the days came and went, she just felt out of place, like she didn’t belong. Today, however, Sage couldn’t imagine being anywhere else. At least she’d had Dustfern to help her settle in. Perhaps she should be this stranger’s Dustfern. It seemed nobody else was going to be. Reluctantly, Sage stood and made her way toward the stranger. She had to remember to be friendly and not chase away the dark-furred tom or else Dustfern would be disappointed. Everything in her screamed to turn around and walk away before she could cost the barn cats a new member. And then she realized: what if the stranger didn’t even want to join their little ragtag group of misfits? She faltered and glanced back over her shoulder, considering abandoning her mission. She imagined Dustfern scolding her, telling her every cat deserved hospitality, and with a frustrated sigh, Sage continued toward the tom. Once she was close enough to call out without disturbing any other cats, she greeted, “ Hello, stranger. I’m Sage. What brings you to the barn? Besides Lux, of course.” She settled down across from him, keeping a few tail-lengths of space between them. Sage tried to meet his gaze with a kind look, but she couldn’t bring herself to remove the uneasy expression from her face.
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Post by spotted on Jun 21, 2023 19:22:13 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/0j53YZS/conniecatava2~png | Constantine, Vilified for deeds done in the light. Hiding away within plain sight. This cloak is keeping safe, the secret face terrified of making one mistake. Narrow mind 'til the soul begins to break. Just a husk seeking the world's false graces. |
Constantine carefully watched along the wall and studied each cat he saw. He noted their body language, their manner of speech, if he could hear it, and how they interacted with the cats around them, and which cats they subsequently avoided. He stared for a while, perhaps on the border of being considered 'rude' before the realization hit him and he moved on to the next subject. It would take him weeks to garner a full assessment. But perhaps his information could be supplemented by Lux later. Out of the corner of his eye, he noticed a she-cat padding in his direction. The closer and more direct her route got, the more he became nervous. Lux was a nice individual, but he was far too willing to invade Constantine's personal space. He had to wonder if all the cats here did that. Her voice captured his attention. So she was approaching to converse with him. As he turned his head to meet her gaze more squarely, he was thankful she settled a respectable distance away. Constantine began his analysis of her. She-cat, young but not old - nearer his age, petite, went by Sage. Her body language was fairly open, but he could sense the underlying uneasiness. Was that his fault? Did she dislike him already? Or was she like him and simply was not good at small-talk. What did bring him to the barn? he thought to himself, still staring at Sage mutely - his body completely frozen. Finally he forced words to exit his mouth. "I am Constantine…I travel, as a healer, and in those travels I have learned of cats living in clans within this valley. I find it very peculiar that several groups have settled separately in the same space and sought to observe them. I met Lux and he mentioned that the clans were possibly dangerous to lone wanderers, and that he could take me to more amiable company here at this barn."
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Post by absurdjinx on Jun 26, 2023 18:41:30 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/42wfXx2/sage~jpg | sage, "you gotta hurt sometimes to learn to heal
you gotta get back up and learn to deal"
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The stranger looked equally as uncomfortable as she felt and Sage found some comfort in that. She wasn’t a very social cat and to interact with someone who also wasn’t too gregarious was a challenge, because both she and the other cat didn’t want to speak. It was easier for her to spend time with more affable cats since they usually did enough talking for the both of them. However, she could relate better to quieter felines - it was just that actually approaching someone to start a conversation, as well as exchanging pleasantries, was difficult for her. In her previous group, Sage was known for rarely saying a word. Back then, nobody wanted to have a civil discussion with her anyway - everyone had been happy to taunt her, though. And so she just stopped talking as much, because the less she said, the less the others could use against her. Of course, her social skills took a hit as a result, but very few members of her former group had any social skills anyway, so it wasn’t like she stood out. Sage had spent all her life surrounded by cats who she couldn’t trust and those she learned to trust, betrayed her. But then Dustfern came along and showed her that not everyone was wicked. Dustfern liked to say that there were more good cats in the world than there were bad ones. Sage still wasn’t quite sure how true that was, but the barn cats were slowly proving Dustfern right. So maybe she should relax her tense shoulders and chase off the urge to flee. But it wasn’t easy to forget everything she’d learned throughout her life and she wasn’t quite ready to lower her guard around cats she didn’t know. Sure, the stranger might have absolutely zero evil intentions, but Sage didn’t just trust anyone. She’d taken a chance with Dustfern, despite the past several chances she’d taken with other cats having failed, and that had worked out great, but she didn’t know how many more risks she was willing to take. How many more times could she endure a broken heart? Constantine. She’d encountered multiple cats with odd names in her past, but Constantine had to be the strangest. Sage wasn’t about to waste time thinking about it, though. Instead, her thoughts drifted toward the clans, the reasons why Constantine had made his way to the valley. Dustfern had told her all about the clans and Sage had interacted with a PrairieClan patrol or two that came to trade supplies and information, but otherwise, she preferred to avoid them. With the clans came a lot of drama, drama she didn’t want to get involved in. She’d lived through enough drama to last a lifetime and now she desired a life of peace. “ PrairieClan isn’t too bad, actually, but MistClan and especially RidgeClan aren’t very friendly toward us outsiders. Be careful where you place your paws in this valley. Dare you step over a border, the clans will accuse you of stealing prey. I find the barn cats to be much more welcoming. I spend my days lazing about and hunting whenever I please. The clans are too chaotic for me, but if they interest you, well, to each their own.”
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Post by spotted on Jul 1, 2023 20:01:47 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/0j53YZS/conniecatava2~png | Constantine, Vilified for deeds done in the light. Hiding away within plain sight. This cloak is keeping safe, the secret face terrified of making one mistake. Narrow mind 'til the soul begins to break. Just a husk seeking the world's false graces. |
The healer listened intently to the she-cat's debrief of the situation in the valley. Prairieclan, Mistclan and Ridgeclan. Hm. "Stealing prey?" He hummed, slightly to himself but still loud enough for Sage to hear. "Is that why they mark their borders? To lay claim to the hunting rights within?" That seemed a foolish reason, but it seemed to work for them. "They interest me in that they are different from anything I have encountered before. Though I have no interest in joining one. I too am no fan of chaos."Constantine flicked the tip of his tail inquisitively, but the rest of his body was perfectly still. "Have you interacted with many clan cats?"
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Post by absurdjinx on Jul 6, 2023 4:18:08 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/42wfXx2/sage~jpg | sage, "you gotta hurt sometimes to learn to heal
you gotta get back up and learn to deal"
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Sage tried to recall everything Dustfern had ever told her about the clans, but it would take all night to explain everything to Constantine. If he had questions, she’d answer them, but she wasn’t particularly eager to jump into a lengthy lecture about the clans. Sage didn’t agree that clan life was superior, but she wasn’t about to pick a fight with the clans over it, not like those cabin cats were. No, she was content where she was and she didn’t want to ruin what she and Dustfern had built by getting involved in the conflict between clan cats and cabin cats. Perhaps she should warn Constantine about the cabin cats before they made an effort to recruit him. It seemed like education was important to him, but Sage didn’t want him to get caught up in the drama trying to learn about the many different lifestyles in the valley. Constantine uttered just loud enough for Sage to hear what he said. She only nodded in response instead of verbally replying to keep any bitterness she felt about borders to herself. While she did her best to maintain neutral relationships with the clan cats and the cabin cats, there were parts of both lifestyles she disagreed with. The cabin cats were consumed by their desire for vengeance and the clan cats were much too intolerant. Sage hated worrying about borders and even though most PrairieClan cats were friendly with the barn cats, she didn’t want to encounter any who weren’t. And if she somehow crossed into MistClan or RidgeClan territory, well, she was certain there would be bloodshed. The cabin cats were equally as nerve-racking for her as the clans were. Sage believed they were too vindictive and she wondered how long it would be until they turned on the barn cats for refusing to join them. When Constantine revealed he had zero interest in joining the clans and also desired a life of peace, Sage smiled softly. There were many barn cats with similar goals, but the more cats she met with intentions to stay impartial, the better. His tail-tip twitched curiously as he asked about her experience with clan cats and her smile widened as she answered, “ My, uh, my best friend is a former clan cat, but she resides here now.“ Sage glanced around to see if Dustfern had returned yet, but she was nowhere to be seen. “ She’s still out hunting. I’ll have to introduce you two sometime. But besides her, I’ve also interacted with a couple visiting PrairieClan patrols, but honestly, that’s enough interaction with clan cats for a lifetime.” She released a quiet chirp of amusement before abruptly changing the topic, “ Oh! I nearly forgot to ask. You haven’t stumbled upon any cabin cats, have you? I’d stay away from them, too.”
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Post by spotted on Aug 8, 2023 19:43:26 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/0j53YZS/conniecatava2~png | Constantine, Vilified for deeds done in the light. Hiding away within plain sight. This cloak is keeping safe, the secret face terrified of making one mistake. Narrow mind 'til the soul begins to break. Just a husk seeking the world's false graces. |
The more he talked to this Sage, the more he could see that clan cats were not a comfortable conversation topic for her. He immediately wondered why, especially when she admitted her best friend was formerly of their ranks. She had cited a chaotic lifestyle, but Constantine sensed more, beneath the surface. As she mentioned making introductions to this best friend of hers, Constantine was oddly content with it. No better cat to ask than someone who had lived the life he sought information about. Though as soon as he formulated his next question - what clan the other she-cat had been a part of - Sage changed the subject rather abruptly. Cabin cats?His tail twitched again as he thought behind his stoic mask. Lux was the only cat he had come across so far, well, the only cat familiar with this place and the politics therin. "Not to my knowledge. Lux has told me of no such group. Why? Are they dangerous?" He wasn't about to dismiss her warning, but he wanted to know what made her feel the need to warn him in the first place.
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Post by absurdjinx on Aug 17, 2023 10:33:44 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/42wfXx2/sage~jpg | sage, "you gotta hurt sometimes to learn to heal
you gotta get back up and learn to deal"
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Sage was shocked by the amount of words escaping her and she couldn’t believe she’d released an amused chirp in front of a stranger. Perhaps spending so much time with Dustfern had its effect on her. Plus, Constantine just seemed like a good cat. He hadn’t given much away, saying and moving very little, but Sage thought she was typically a good judge of character. He just seemed like the curious type, eager to learn, and the fact that he wasn’t interested in joining a clan was a positive sign. Constantine also seemed like an outsider, reclusive, which Sage could totally relate to. Back in her old group, she hadn’t fit in anywhere. Loneliness had been her friend for many moons until she’d stumbled upon Dustfern. She was beginning to suspect that she disliked the clans more than she’d thought. She didn’t like to admit to having fears, but she worried the clans were too much like her old group. Like the clans, they hadn’t been very friendly toward outsiders. The Syndicate had been cruel, raiding other camps to kill their residents and steal their supplies. According to Dustfern, the clans were nothing like The Syndicate, but Sage was a cynical cat. It had taken her some time to warm up to the barn cats and they’d been nothing but kind to her. And she couldn’t ignore the stories she’d heard from traveling rogues about their encounters with clan cats. Each and every rogue had been turned away, and some had even been wounded. Most of the cabin cats had had bad interactions with clan cats so Sage could understand their desire for vengeance. If tranquility hadn’t been enough to satisfy her, she might’ve considered retaliating against The Syndicate. She shook her head slightly and frowned solemnly. “ The cabin cats have been consumed by their hatred for the clans. They want nothing more than for their abolition. I’m not the clans’ biggest supporter, but I advocate for peace. However, although I don’t agree with it, their dispute is none of my business. So long as the conflict between clan and cabin cats don't affect the barn, I will stay out of it. I recommend you do the same.”
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Post by spotted on Sept 5, 2023 19:42:51 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/0j53YZS/conniecatava2~png | Constantine, Vilified for deeds done in the light. Hiding away within plain sight. This cloak is keeping safe, the secret face terrified of making one mistake. Narrow mind 'til the soul begins to break. Just a husk seeking the world's false graces. |
A thoughtful hum of understanding rumbled in his chest at Sage's words about this new faction. "That is certainly worrisome." He paused, collecting his thoughts. "I too advocate for nonviolent solutions to conflict."It wasn't Constantine's first experience with cats who were so driven by their hatred for another that they let it consume them - often hurting innocents in the process. There was no violence tolerated in their band. They had treated cats in need on both sides of the conflicts - whether personal or familial - they had come across, without personal judgments on their behavior affecting their treatment. Constantine craved that neutrality. He did not wish to be recruited into a crusade of contempt. "Do they frequently come to the barn to look for recruits for their cause?...And do they state why they hate the clans to the point of inciting violence?" Constantine had noted quite a lot of younger cats around the barn, less worldly, and more prone to rash decisions and false impressions. It was them he was more worried about.
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Post by absurdjinx on Sept 12, 2023 11:38:53 GMT -6
#s://i~ibb~co/42wfXx2/sage~jpg | sage, "you gotta hurt sometimes to learn to heal
you gotta get back up and learn to deal"
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Sage nodded in agreement when Constantine called the cabin cats’ agenda worrisome. She feared that the growing conflict between clan and clanless would eventually affect the cats who called the barn home. She’d finally found peace and the last thing she wanted was to lose it. Most days, Dustfern’s company alone soothed Sage’s concerns, but she couldn’t help it on days when they overwhelmed her. She’d spent her entire life struggling to survive and sometimes, she felt an awful lot like she was just existing, which was a distressing feeling. But ever since she’d warmed up to the barn cats, she started living. Sage laughed more since settling down at the barn than she did in her whole life. Was a bit of calm too much to ask for? She watched with interest as Constantine took a moment to think, her head tilted slightly, and thought she could almost see his mind working. Up until Dustfern, Sage had only ever met one type of cat: fighter. The members of her former group were not mediators or thinkers or healers - the healer hadn’t even been a healer, but a killer - and despite having interacted with many barn cats over the moons, she still wasn’t quite used to cats who thought before they acted. The cats of The Syndicate had only ever been hostile to her, like they wanted to fight. Sometimes, Sage still expected to be struck when she made a mistake, occasionally to the point of flinching. The other barn cats always looked horrified when they realized why she’d recoiled. “ Many cats find refuge here, including those who have been turned away by the clans. The cabin cats know this and they’ll stop by every now and then to see if anyone would like to join them. Most of us barn cats aren’t very confrontational, so the cabin cats come and go as they please.” Sage had once wondered what would happen if the barn cats decided to ban the cabin cats from entering, but she’d decided that would only cause conflict. She also liked to think a majority of the barn cats were too smart to get involved with the other groups in the valley. “ I know many of the cabin cats have been wronged by the clans in some way. Personally, I doubt any reason justifies what they’re doing. I understand why they want vengeance, but I don’t support their mission. I just know innocent cats will suffer and absolutely nothing can make that right.”
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